This Is Me: Rising After Rock Bottom
Episode 52 – Spiritual Awakening Podcast with Shaz – Destiny to Despair
Rising After Rock Bottom
When life falls apart, it’s easy to believe that everything is over. But sometimes, those moments of despair are the very cracks where your light begins to shine through. This is Me: Rising After Rock Bottom shares Shaz’s journey from homelessness, the loss of her business and failure to the success she has built today.
In this week’s episode of Spiritual Awakening with Shaz, I celebrate one full year of the podcast – and the release of Where the Light Finally Lands, a powerful collaborative book featuring 22 women sharing their stories of heartbreak, loss, and rediscovery.
My chapter, Despair, reflects the darkest time of my life – losing my business, my home, my car, and even my sense of self. But through surrender, faith, and divine guidance, I rebuilt everything from the ground up and found my way back to purpose and peace.
The Breaking Point That Became My Beginning
There was a time when I truly lost everything.
My business collapsed, my home was gone, and I found myself sitting outside a mental health clinic, crying for hours, torn between asking for help or giving up completely.
That moment – as painful as it was – became my turning point.
When I finally walked through those hospital doors, I didn’t find immediate peace, but I found something more powerful: space.
Space to breathe, feel, and begin again.
Through prayer and surrender, I reconnected with my spirit guides and my faith. And in that connection, I rediscovered who I really was – not the woman who had lost everything, but the one who was strong enough to rebuild it all.
Through Music, I Found My Healing
Through reflections on songs by Taylor Swift, Lady Gaga, Kelly Clarkson, and Cher, I discovered that music and spirit were my greatest healers – guiding me back to my light and purpose.
These songs helped me release trauma and rewrite my inner story:
? Cher – “You Haven’t Seen the Last of Me”
? Taylor Swift – “We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together” (my breakup anthem… with trauma!)
? The Greatest Showman – “This Is Me”
? Kelly Clarkson – “Dark Side”
? Lady Gaga – “Stronger Than Before”
Each song became a reminder of who I was becoming: resilient, free, and unapologetically me.
I used their lyrics as affirmations – I am my own rescue.</em> I am the creator of my universe. I am stronger than before.
Music has always been one of the universe’s ways to speak directly to the soul, and these songs became the soundtrack of my rebirth.
Healing Isn’t Linear – It’s Transformational
Healing isn’t quick or pretty. It’s layered, raw, and deeply human.
Through facing my shadow self, I learned that darkness isn’t something to fear – it’s something to integrate. The light and dark within us must coexist for us to feel whole.
Every wound holds wisdom. Every scar carries strength. And when you learn to love every version of yourself, you finally become free.
As I healed, everything I had once dreamed of began to manifest – a new home, my beautiful Ute, thriving coaching programs, and a life built on authenticity and purpose.
From Despair to Destiny
This past year has been one of divine alignment – a cycle of transformation, creation, and expansion.
I’ve become the woman I once prayed to be: confident, peaceful, and deeply connected to my purpose.
Every loss and heartbreak prepared me for this version of me – the one who now lives in gratitude and light.
I didn’t just rise from rock bottom. I was reborn there.
Reflection Prompts for You
If you’ve ever felt broken or lost, ask yourself:
What did my lowest moment teach me about strength?
What pain am I ready to stop revisiting?
What does my “This Is Me” moment look like?
Key Takeaways from Rising After Rock Bottom
✔ Your lowest point can become your greatest awakening.
✔ Healing happens through surrender, not resistance.
✔ Music, faith, and self-love are powerful tools for transformation.
✔ The divine is always guiding you back to yourself.
✔ Every experience prepares you for your next evolution.
Listen to the Full Episode
? Spiritual Awakening with Shaz – Episode 52: “From Despair to Destiny”
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